OK well I'm definitely not getting obsessed with it, which is good, I guess... and probably also means that the experiment will have lived a very short life, less than a laboratory white mouse.
Anyway, I'm still here to say (whom? why?) that my optimism still survives despite all the failed attempts to secure a job which makes me feel like I'm where I should be.. or at least getting there. At the moment I'm getting farther and farther from it, but coming up with alternative plans. Which might obviously all be bullshit, but they make me feel OK until I get that confirmed. So better than anything. The important thing is to have a plan (or more.. but then that risks confusion/loss of focus), and to have something to look forward to and to work towards. Next step, next award... I should soon get a conference ticked on my CV, see how it goes... then a bit more work.. then stop work.. and go to Rome, back to the Città Eterna for a little week to celebrate our first year (and beside that, just for the sake of it :) )
Fascinating isn't it? Like the modest Chevillard said, "Hier encore, un de ses biographes est mort d'ennui." (More or less... but my life feels so full... maybe that's why my blog is so empty... enough for now...)
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